Wednesday, December 02, 2009 ' 11:12 PM
Melaka TripFun, exciting, gerek,
poWer... super, super gerek, that i dont wish to come back singapore. but... i miss the people in singapore.
tsk, tsk, tsk. haha. dapat tengok lembu kene korban. can't seem to eat beef for now. even if i eat, it be by force. can't seem to get rid the thought of the dear, dear cow being slaughtered off my mind. heh.
The abang that look like mawi, cute ar. Ish! Kalau dapat kahwin dengan orang kampung, rase2 best tak? Just a thought.
SIM uniErkz... the registration letter is finally here and... i can't seem to register in my mind that i have to start school soon. Erkz... Can back out now? -_-" Bah..... guess, have to remind myself why i sign up school in the first place. ish, sitiii...
WorkI think, im the only human in the office excluding the secretary. =/
SickIt can be depressing when your siblings are well taken care of when they are sick and when you are sick, there's no one around. Gee, why do i always have to fall sick when no one is at home? Annoying! Pretty annoying especially when it takes all over you and you are walking like one olddd woman around the house. Kot2 jatuh ajerrr. Ish. I just fall at the side of the road yesterday. Terpelecut. Basket... Jatuh sebelah orang, orang buat bodoh. =( But there was a nice guy who actually run from far to help. Awwww... Paiseh me.
Depressed/StressShould be cause by the workload. or just me being sensitive. or due to lack of communication with humans since i always work in office alone. or due to thinking too much. or due to me, envy with people all around me. or due to me, feeling left out. should be due to the awful remarks by people. (thank god, im not a star. i probably be very stress out. haha) i think is due to all
birthday11 months of waiting for me to turn 23 and i dont feel like celebrating. =) for my bdae, i want lots of strength and confidence, maybe someone who listens intently and dont call me crazy or ridiculous for no reason, maybe someone who don't call me stupid names, maybe someone who don't use that high tone on me and told me off that im some evil bitch or whatever... ha.ha., nah... i want lots of hugs. someone who make me cry in a good way would be nice. heh. i be hiding on my bdae, definitely with an accomplice. well, that's the plan.
happy advance bday to me.
Sa'aidah
Sunday, November 22, 2009 ' 12:44 AM
im just a little girl...
everyday is a new day, a new beginning, a new start. at times, i do wish to blog about it but after much thought, i decide to forego the idea. either malas or probably just takde bahan to me.
blog entries are not newsletter or newspapers. well, that's my opinion. though im amazed by people who took the time to blog the interesting bits of their life when i can't be bother to sit down and compose myself to compose such interesting bits. hehe.
life has been... forever filled with ups and downs. =) there were those times, one or two that i actually have those negative feelings of wanting god to take my life away. aiyo... astarghfirullah. but i manage to "slap" myself and alhamdulilah, im still here, still sane, still manage to make the best out of everything. alhamdulilah. still going strong. =) jia you, siti.
life can seem pretty hard when you're single but it can still be hard when you're attached. the grass is forever green on the other side, huh? we, humans, forever dreams of the better things in life. then again, shouldn't we? =) k, maybe with reality in mind.
at the current moment, the guy im eyeing is... taylor lautner!!! hahaha. =P looking forward to catch new moon badly. hehehe. kla, i have to admit it that i do keep on a lookout on the guy i bump into the other day. the morning cuteness but apparently, luck hasn't been on my side. oh well, at least recalling the journey makes me happy. =) ahakz!
work load has been a lot. im working like a robot. but im trying my best to manage my time. at the same time, be firm and to be on this constant sign slash reminder, that i have lots of things on hand despite my uber cool upfront and carefree singing at work. yes, i look that cool and calm and i guess, such outlook fools people a lot. when by right, im managing stress free to ensure productivity on my side. i can't work with pressure. the more i feel stress, the more i give shits not sheets. yet again, orang dengki tak suke, tgk orang senang. =(
on regards of boss, im starting to like her actually. i guess, she's no mirinda preasley. but she be mirinda if you never flash on your forehead "red alert, red alert, i can't manage all this!" haha.
and to end this entry, i thank god for the dear angels he appointed. =) still waiting for another angel in life. the one i spent the rest of my life with. still waiting and still hoping. tak rugi, kalau kite bersabar. plus such angel is hard to find. if one still have no money to spare, it's a bit funny to hope so much on that angel. kot2 die datang tibe2, n den ________. tak balik modAl. haha. =)
pray for me for that fine lad. the one who warms me up. =)
Sa'aidah
